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fic - dear heero... [misc]
Title:  Dear Heero...
Summary:  A little bird gave me two words: 'writer's block' and 'zombies'.  (okay, so that's three words, but whatever.)
Notes:  Possibly a little rambly, because as promised, the bulk of it was scribbled down while sitting in the jury selection room.  (where unfortunately i was selected and now i'm sitting a criminal trial. boo.)

Dear Heero...

"Dear Heero..."  He sat there staring at the cursor blinking for all of five seconds before he hit the cancel button and shut down the new message window.  "This is stupid," he muttered to himself, telling himself to just finish his card game instead.  Just a little bit more time to kill before he could get out of the office to get some lunch, and get his mind off stupid things.  Stupid, and crazy, and maybe even slightly suicidal.  He tried not to think 'desperate'.

He lost a game of cards rather miserably before admitting that things had gotten far enough, in his mind at least, for action to be necessary.  Rash impulse had gotten him far enough to open the message window in the first place. Now resignation led him to open a second one.

This couldn't be all that hard.  He'd faced down whole squadrons of various mechanized weapons bent on his destruction.  This was nothing.  Nothing, except that it would dictate the course of the rest of his life, rather than the manner of his death.

All he needed was an approach.  That was all.  Once he had a good start, he was confident he could finish without problems.  Just needed something less stupid than 'Dear Heero'.  Okay then, they were at least close enough that he could forego the greeting words and just start with a simple 'Heero', right?  He typed the name triumphantly into his message draft.

And then erased it after a few seconds, the decisive action accompanied by a shake of his head.  Of course the message would be for Heero.  It was being sent to his inbox, after all.  Who else would it be for?

The name came back in another ten seconds.  It seemed far too abrupt to start the message without a greeting of some sort, and he had to admit it was a little intimidating to stare at the completely blank message, waiting for him to jump directly into all the hard stuff.  And yet now that that salutation had kindly opened the floor for him, now he was still stuck staring at the nearly blank and still intimidating expanse waiting patiently for his message.

Okay, he asked himself what he wanted to convey.  How far did he dare go?  A little something just to break the ice?  Maybe he could find some interesting article to forward along, say he thought Heero might be interested.  But what if he wasn't?  He didn't want to completely blow his chances by forwarding something completely wrong.  Maybe he could make it work-related.  That seemed safe.  Only to then have to turn it from work-related to personal, Duo didn't think he had the patience or the fortitude for that.  If he was going to bite the bullet, he had to bite the goddamn bullet and go for broke.  He'd chicken out otherwise.

Alright, so he was set on going at it.  Now how did he want to convey it?  What did he think would capture Heero's fancy?  He had no idea, and that was really a large part of the problem, wasn't it?  He didn't know Heero as well as he wanted to.

Now there was a start. "Heero, I want to get to know you better."  The sentence was snuffed out of digital existence almost before the last letter had been typed.  No way, that was far too... something.  No matter what adjective he found to describe it, it boiled down to 'unacceptable'.

"Hey, Heero," he started again. "I've been thinking lately that we don't hang out as often as we should."  He sat back and scrutizined the living daylights out of that line.  'I've been thinking...'  Yeah, that was good.  Heero liked thinkers, right?  Maybe?  And the rest was just simple fact, right?  Couldn't go wrong with the facts.  Then again, 'I want to get to know you better' was a sad fact, too, and that was very definitely going wrong.

And 'as often as we should'?  Who was he to make judgment calls on something like that?  Maybe Heero was totally happy with how little they hung out with each other.  They saw each other at work enough, had offices only sort of in proximity to each other.  There was the occasional pilot get-together.  Yeah, see, he was just proposing a get-together.  Just the two of them.  Nothing wrong with that, right?

Except that it was out of the ordinary.  Heero would ask him questions, questions he wasn't quite ready to answer.  Not yet.  Not until he had gotten some answers out of Heero first.  Answers he would never get if never managed to send off this damn note.

Okay, justifications.  If Heero asked, what could he say in response that was totally innocuous?  How about, um, well, it always took time and effort to get them all together, so maybe he just thought that that was no excuse for them to not hang out and if they had to get together in smaller groups, well, why the heck not?  Heero was the kind of guy that didn't tolerate excuses, right?  Which kind of made Duo feel guilty about making up an excuse about not liking excuses.  And what would happen if Heero found him out?  It would be easy for him to ask Wufei if he had been asked to this little informal get-together, and since the answer would be no, surely Heero would begin to question his motivations, and he didn't want that.  Maybe Duo could sniff around Wufei's schedule a little and choose a day when he was busy.  But that was deviously dishonest and Wufei didn't really deserve to be manipulated like that.

Maybe an approach without artifice.  No, wait, he'd already tried that with his first attempt.  Maybe another try wouldn't hurt.  "Heero," he started assertively.  "Busy on Friday?  Wanna go out with me?"  He shuddered as he erased the line.  Just seeing himself be so forward about things gave him the willies.  He didn't think Heero was interested in that kind of approach.  Sure, the guy liked straightforward, as far as Duo could tell, but he was pretty sure Heero had never responded affirmatively to the various people who had been crazy enough to actually ask him out or leave him their number.

Wait, why was he voluntarily joining the ranks of the crazy people again?

Oh yeah.  Because Heero had been haunting the subconscious corridors of his mind for years now, and if Duo didn't do something about it to settle things one way or another, he was going to go crazy.  Damned if he did, and damned if he didn't.  Well, not a situation he was unfamiliar with dealing with.

Okay, one more try.  Maybe an offer Heero couldn't refuse?  "Heero," he tried seriously.  "I need your help.  The zombie apocalypse is coming and we need to be prepared.  We're the only thing standing between--"  Okay, maybe not.  Great, now he was officially even more crazy than all the crazy people that had come before him.  He certainly hoped it would take a little less than World War Z to get Heero to spend time with him.

There was a knock on his office door.  "Yeah?" he automatically called out, minimizing his message window, and then changing his mind and closing it altogether.  He looked up and accidentally let loose a swear word.  "Whoa, shit, are the zombies ready to attack or something?"

Heero blinked at him.  "I beg your pardon?"

Duo blinked back at him.  "Um.  Never mind."  An eyebrow rose at him.  "No, really.  Never mind.  So.  Something I can do for you?"

The skeptical look lingered for a few more seconds, but then he finally moved on.  "It's quiet in the office right now."

A simple observation, perhaps, but so simple that it threw Duo off.  "Um, yeah.  People taking off early for the holidays and all that.  Even the bad guys seem like they're giving it a rest right now."

"Yeah.  Want to grab some lunch?  It's not quite noon yet, but there's not really much point in waiting around here."

If Duo were any less crafty and slick than he was, he'd be gaping.  Instead, he answered, "Yeah, sure, that sounds like a great idea.  Why didn't I think of that?"  He pulled his jacket off the back of his seat and shrugged it on, trying not to be too obvious about kicking himself for overcomplicating things.

Heero didn't like overcomplicating things, right?

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merelymir From: merelymir Date: October 27th, 2009 04:28 am (UTC) (Link)
*Squee* Poor Duo. Torturing himself. Should have used instant messenger. So much easier. *definitive nod*
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 09:31 am (UTC) (Link)
Ha, I'm not really sure Duo would do any better if there weren't any filter at all between typing and sending!  Well, okay, he'd still have to hit the send button cuz it's not terrible like chatting... which just means he'd have just as hard a time!

Hmmm, trying to decide whether or not Heero would think IMing at work was frivolous...
merelymir From: merelymir Date: October 28th, 2009 01:47 am (UTC) (Link)
Well there are the systems designed specifically for work environments. But he would probably question why Duo was messaging him when they were in the same building or worse, the same floor or whatever. I mean it has its uses for international companies and the like. Aw man. Now I can see Duo getting a little kick out of annoying Heero with 'frivolous' IMing when he was just a couple of doors down the hall. *G*

P.S. Sorry for the fragment sentences in my last comment. I should have been asleep at least an hour before I even read your story... Bad Mir. No sleep! er... cookie?
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 30th, 2009 04:09 am (UTC) (Link)
Well, we have regular ol' IM at work, and sure maybe some people spend time chatting, and maybe our work environment is casual, but sometimes it's a lot more convenient to IM a person a question when he sits on the other side of the office, rather than walking and talking or phoning or e-mailing.

I knew people in college who would IM their roommates as a form of leaving them messages if they were out. =D
merelymir From: merelymir Date: October 30th, 2009 05:29 am (UTC) (Link)
I did that in college! My roommate would verbalize her responses and I would type mine. Mostly out of boredom.
lavendarlizard From: lavendarlizard Date: October 27th, 2009 06:10 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, man... ^____^ I sure hope he manages to just blurt something out and get it over with. He's gonna give himself an ulcer or an anxiety attack or start hyperventilating over lunch and freak Heero out. Or at least cause the eyebrows to do their thing. ^___~

*pets the over-complicating duo*

turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 09:36 am (UTC) (Link)
No, no, the last few fics were the ones where he accidentally blurted something out.  This time, he's keeping mum and keeping his cool in the face of Heero. ^_^ (aka he's gonna pretend he totally planned this.)
lavendarlizard From: lavendarlizard Date: October 27th, 2009 03:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
"I've got you right where you want me!" *snicker*

I hope it's at least an interesting trial. ^___^ And short. Short would be good, too.
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 28th, 2009 07:15 am (UTC) (Link)
They originally said it'd go until Thursday, but now it seems it should be done a day early.  I wouldn't normally care all that much (within reason) except it's still overtime at work and I'm not there.  Seems like no major issues with my name on it have come up, but everyone's still pulling the OT and I'm not part of it.  Even if it is a court-mandated absence, it still leaves me feeling like a slacker. =p
sharona1x2 From: sharona1x2 Date: October 27th, 2009 08:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Duo will always be his own worst enemy. I'm sure one day, he'll share this with Heero and they'll both get a good laugh from it. ^_^

I'd like to archive this one too, if that's okay with you. I don't archive a lot of long stories, so I tend to go after your shorter ones.
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 09:41 am (UTC) (Link)
I need to give Duo a break and write him totally confident and suave and in control of his inner self. ^o^ Give him a chance to stalk an insecure Heero or something.  It'd be only fair.

Squee.  Archive away!  (technically, you've already got all my long works archived under your shiny new gwyaoi novella section. ^_^)
sunhawk16 From: sunhawk16 Date: October 27th, 2009 10:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Aw crap... you're done already? O_o; I feel so totally fic-challenged. :P
This right here is so much cooler than the lame non-prompt should have allowed. Over-thinking Duo is just so cute!
I would have mine done too, but... you know... having to take the time to board the windows before the zombie invasion... >_>
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 07:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
Don't you worry about the zombie invasion.  Heero and Duo will take care of that.  You just sit back, relax, and worry about writing your fic. ^__^
sunhawk16 From: sunhawk16 Date: October 28th, 2009 12:59 am (UTC) (Link)
You will send them to camp on my front porch and protect me? Cool! Now all I need is an idea! And some time... >_>
berneynator From: berneynator Date: October 27th, 2009 03:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
Very cute. Now I want to know whether Heero was doing his own dithering before finally biting the bullet.
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 07:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
From Heero's side, it probably went like this:
Heero decided he wanted to spend some time with Duo.  He looked at the clock, judged the relative silence of the office, appraised his empty inbox, then strode down the hall to Duo's office to ask him out to lunch.  The end.

^o^ (he doesn't like overcomplicating things. *nodnod*)
sablewick From: sablewick Date: October 27th, 2009 06:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Delurking. Have read most of your fiction, it is beyond epic. I love all your snippets and your 'one shots'. And Haven is nothing short of awesome.

This is a cute fic. And even though it was part of the prompt so you had to have it in there, the zombies were pretty damn cool. And I like that it was brought up at the end as well as mentioning the thought in the middle.

Err, was somewhat inspired when I read it this evening, so I sketched something out. I was wondering whether it was ok to link back to your story since it was the inspiration, even though the sketch is incredibly crappy (it's a sketch journal anyway so everything on there is unfinished). Let me know if it's not ok. I promise next time I decide to get inspired I'll draw something nicer...
Duo Sketch
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 27th, 2009 07:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
Zombies just officially make this my pseudo-halloween fic for the year. ^_^

Cute pic!  I happen to like sketchy pics. *_* What's the little doohickey sitting on the desk by Duo's right hand supposed to be?

Please feel free to link to this entry. ^_^
From: mazza2869 Date: October 28th, 2009 12:28 am (UTC) (Link)
*grin* Erm, I think I may have had this vague notion of drawing a toy Gundam, but I was really just trying to fill desk space... Notice that big white gap behind him? Yeah, couldn't think of anything else to put in there either.

Thanks! And yay for Halloween. Zombies are still one of my favorite monster/creatures.
yira_heerai From: yira_heerai Date: October 27th, 2009 09:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ten imaginary bucks says Duo was muttering the entire time he was trying to send the thing. Whether or not that has anything to do with Heero coming in and asking him to lunch depends on what the proximity of offices happens to be and/or if he was passing by Duo's office.
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 28th, 2009 07:17 am (UTC) (Link)
After embarrassing Duo the last two fics in front of Heero, I think I'll cut him a break this time and say he didn't accidentally hit the 'send' button instead of the 'cancel' button. ^o^
pyrrhical From: pyrrhical Date: October 28th, 2009 01:38 am (UTC) (Link)
So I just finished reading a Merlin fic on the zombie apocalypse, and now this and IS THERE SOME SORT OF BIZARRE FANDOM AGREEMENT ON ZOMBIES RIGHT NOW?

That said, this was funny and adorable and everything I associate with both of them. ♥ Loved it!
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: October 30th, 2009 04:23 am (UTC) (Link)
Well, the bird gave me the words two weeks ago.  I've just been slacking. =) Though recently, I've seen someone reading World War Z, and someone else was reading Pride and Prejudice and Zombies.  Maybe it's just that time of year. ^_^
pyrrhical From: pyrrhical Date: October 30th, 2009 06:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
PERHAPS. I guess, seasonally, it does make sense. 8D
salmastryon From: salmastryon Date: October 30th, 2009 12:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
hehe silly Duo.

Though unfortunately I could so see myself doing the same sorta double thinking. lol
From: aynessa Date: November 17th, 2009 04:10 am (UTC) (Link)


Cute fic!!! I love it....and I can so relate to poor Duo, stressing over something that doesn't need to be complicated, lol.

I would love to see a sequel to this!!!! D: Pwease?
turnippatch From: turnippatch Date: November 20th, 2009 02:22 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Squee~

Um, sequel? *sweatdrop* They, uh, go out and have a nice lunch that, err, lasts longer than an hour but neither of them really cares, and, hmm, they earnestly discuss their options in dealing with the upcoming zombie apocalypse. >_> But since that's quite the complicated handbasket, Duo manages to invite Heero out to lunch the next day as well to continue their discussion.

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